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Sunday, March 11, 2012

on the wall

he carries in his heart
many secrets and a pain
but sometimes when
the secrets too many
and the pain's a bit heavy
he goes out and writes them
on the walls of this city
his pain's now relieved
and yet his secret is safe
cause no one believes
the drivel on this wall

Sunday, October 30, 2011

28

I just realized, I was dead
cold and stiff inside my head
I'll say no more, not a single word
what is unsaid will remain unheard

my pain, my guilt, and my dark skies
clouded my mind with silent cries
said to no one, no one to hear
but I had a rhyme for every tear

tide of misery, on shores of gloom
hurtin heart made my words bloom
I found their light, stuck in the dark
I be in pieces but I'll leave a mark!

words of hurt, have a healing effect
written on a wall and left unchecked
that storm's gone now, it's silent after
soul for survival was the barter

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

appear

I truly wanted to be
but all they needed from me
was my standing quietly there
and my face to always appear
happy
and content with what I've got
believe in the fairy tales not
coz dreaming's for the closed eyes
none survive as the time flies

I really wanted to feel
but all they wanted to deal
was cards stacked to tradition
and my hand to be complaisant
blindly
and falling within the lines dotted
on the maps of people divided
coz man's animal playing social
who's instincts still base brutal

Saturday, May 21, 2011

translation

I was on a tour of Kerala recently. A nice, clean and beautiful place. A lot could be said about that not in this post. This post is for that one event in Thiruvananthapuram zoo. One of the tourist attractions in this state capital. I was one amongst the hundreds who wondered around those caged animals in that hot, sunny afternoon. 
 
I must say, its a good zoo. laid out well and clean. At one end of the zoo, they have tiger cages. I always imagined them to possess this natural strength. Strength to rule their territory. Strength to instill fear in the hearts and minds of animals on the lower levels of the food chain. 
With their muscle strength and claws and teeth and the roar. The deep bass thundering sound declaring their sovereignty. If you here this sound you are supposed to run your non-tiger behind off! Fear and respect the might of the king. That is what it means.

Or so I thought.

Half a dozen of these kings of the jungle, these majestic beasts were displayed for the flocks of onlookers. One of them especially uneasy. pacing hard up and down. fierce but caged and hence helpless. People were passing by the cages. Taking pictures, marveling (?) at the terrible beauty in front of their eyes. And then they moved to the next cage. As I had.

Then it happened. Perhaps, teased by a tourist, or frustrated with the cage or simply due to its nature. One of the tigers snapped and let out a loud, teethy roar. 
And what I saw? The tourists looking at the other caged animals nearby, all rushed to see the angry tiger. Ran right towards the angry tiger! Not away from it!! Angry, fearsome, deadly but caged.


The cage had translated the fierce and fearsome roar into a sound of amusement...

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

slumber rhyme

the big question blues
and answers with hues
questioning the meaning of questions


the meanings to know
and reasons to show
actioning the freedom of actions

I shook her to wake
but I am not awake
sensing the dream of sensations

In slumber rhyme flows
I wake up and it goes
resuming the reality assumptions

Monday, April 25, 2011

not me

who is thinking these thoughts?
not me...not me...
who is saying these words?
not me...not me...
I am but a puppet,
with strings tangled up

who is the master of my fate?
not me...not me...
who holds all the keys?
not me...not me...
I am but a kite,
with dreams and dread of free will

Friday, March 11, 2011

memories

not forgotten
your memories are inside me
rain water in ground


Monday, January 31, 2011

some more

clouded, heavy rain
missing the clear blue sky
will miss the rain too
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yesterday's dream
I wish to have it again
it's poem unfinished
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a song made me sad
it's all I want to hear now
it's all that heard me
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Tuesday, July 13, 2010

deleting attachments

chained  in my cave
long shadows on the wall
dusk or dawn?

living my life the way I live
to avenge my life
for the way I lived

slow realization of empty hand
trickling of hourglass sand
deleting attachments

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Yes, you do love the rising sun but...

the exploding hues of  golden red and yellow
waking a warm hope in you the breeze cool mellow
mild bright globe hung on the easterly side
drowning the sky in a fresh light tide
its the nature's conspiracy of a biochemical coup
falling in love with the rising sun are you

there's something more that you should know
the inevitable which follows this magnificent show
of the brightness that'll turn your gaze away
then the scorching heat that rains on the midday
lowly evening farewell with escaping twilight
and a sunless night of moon and starlight

the sun is not bound to the eastern low
there's more to it, than the morning show

Thursday, March 11, 2010

from the depths of Ich

Your anonimity
wont hide you from me
or yourself
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let me shed this
charade of knowledge and
know my ignorance
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often buried deep 
in the grave of the past
is future unborn
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the worst demons
are born unto
fallen angels of innocence
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 don't look back
at the turn you've missed
next one is coming up
______________________________

you win it or you lose
whatever you may choose
"the real" catches up
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Loved and Lost
is better than not have loved at all
always and never